Did everyone make it through the holiday rush and into the new year? For me, the answer is, “Just barely.”
My son-in-love and his mother are originally from Germany. Instead of saying, “Happy New Year,” they say, “Guten Rutsch,” which translates to, “Good slide.” Yeah, that would be me, this year, tumbling into the new year like a baseball player sliding desperately for home plate.
And I am tired. Physically, emotionally and spiritually kaput. Barely a week went by last year where there weren’t sick people, broken down cars or major appliances going on the fritz. Too many overnight writing sessions as I squeaked out my deadlines. And I’ve been pushing myself like crazy to be more, do more and write more.
Until I hit a wall. Bam. Done. Gone. Knocked out. I think God was yelling, “Stoooooopppp!” but I was so busy pressing forward that I didn’t hear Him. And the worst part is, I’m the guilty one. I’m the one pushing myself beyond my limits. I’m the one who doesn’t give myself permission to just be still and spend time with God. I’m the crazy Martha zipping around doing fifty things where there is only one thing that’s needful.
So as the new year dawns, my main goal isn’t a goal at all. I’m slowing down. Giving myself a break. I’m not saying this is easy. I’m a total Type A personality and an oldest-child perfectionist. It’s a challenge. If I’m not constantly on the move then I’m in a state of panic, that somehow the world will fall apart if I’m not right there.
Guess what? So far the world hasn’t fallen apart. Taking time every day to pray—really pray—is already making a marked difference in my life. I’m still learning how to breathe, and I suspect it’s going to take a long time to learn to stand down and let God take the reins, but I know in my heart that’s where I need to be this year.
How about you? Is it time to give yourself a break and rest in the Lord? Wherever you find yourself in life, I wish you and your loved ones peace in the new year and always.
Deb Kastner’s February 2016 release, A Daddy for Her Triplets, is book five in the Lone Star Boys Ranch Love Inspired Continuity miniseries.