Hello, Jolene Navarro checking in from the Texas Hill Country. I love dancing in the rain. I strive to find peace in the eye of the storm. But sometimes the smile is fake, the heart is broken, and the knees are bruised.
There are times when burdens feel too heavy to carry alone. There are seasons in our lives when we wonder how we will get up and do it again. Loved ones are sick, the financial responsibilities are greater than our income, the job drains your soul instead of feeding it.
Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest.– Matthew 11:28
The big ones bring us to our knees. As people of faith, they have us turning to God in our weakness and hopeless.
As I write this, my life is full of blessings. I’m living I life I didn’t even dream possible. But there are times that small stones are flung at me, they fall away, after all, they are like the tiny mosquito. They pester me until I can’t enjoy the beautiful sunset over the river. If we let them, they will take away the joy.
These little dings make me feel ungrateful if I complain. Really, others have real reasons to cry. But those small hits add up. Why does one hurtful comment stay with me and become a worm in my brain? It drills in deep until I forget about the words of encouragement, the praises, and accomplishments? Why does one failure remove the shine from the five victories?
Whenever we step out and risk capturing a dream the world will be ready to chase us back into hiding. Forcing us to retreat back into a safe place. A safe place of comfort, without risk – without serving our purpose.
I’ve recently had a serious of unrelated events that undermined my confidence, made me doubt that I’m living in God’s will. Like I said earlier I live a pretty optimistic, upbeat life. I do believe God has us and even in times of sorrow we can find the joy. Oh, but there are times I let the mosquitos take over and drive me crazy.
Maybe in today’s world, we are just expected to be and do everything to everyone all the time and if we are not on the top somehow that puts us on the bottom. No one wants to be on the bottom, right?
But as always God has an answer for that too:
But those who trust in the Lord for help will find their strength renewed. They will rise on wings like eagles; they will run and not get weary; they will walk and not grow weak.– Isaiah 40:31
As I struggled with self-doubt, I realized I had been in such a rush I had not taken the time to listen to God. To be still in his presence and listen. I remind myself to start the day with him and finish the day with him, and all the in-between will be right by him.
I love writing Christian romance because it lets me explore my own weakness and the basic drive in humans to make mistakes and try to get it right. We are all messed up somehow – turning to God and finding our purpose is a great journey to take.
In Texas Daddy coming out in stores July 16th – ebook Aug 1 – Nikki, the heroine carries a heavy burden, a secret she has hidden from her family. Now she is forced to come home with her father and sisters, for the first time in ten years. The burden of that secret gets too heavy to carry any longer.
When she decides to fully trust God and stop living a lie, she is risking losing the life she wants. Faced with the truth of her past, Adrian, the hero, must decide if he can forgive or hang on to his judgment and face a future without the woman who has made him love again
I fell in love with these people struggling to get it right.
Through reading and writing, I get to see the journey unfold in other lives over and over again. It helps me remember how important prayer is and trusting in God for all things.
So this morning as I sit and listen to the birds and watch the sun ascent over the hills, I find the peace that I am a child of God.
I will make mistakes. So not only do I need to accept forgiveness but I need to give it – even when not asked for. This is how God will lighten my heart and let me find joy in the everyday trials we face. I need to be the light of God’s love.
Do you have a go-to Bible verse? A favorite work of fiction that lifts you up? Maybe you have a favorite place to hear God. Blessing to you and yours.