Every day I get up determined to follow my routine. I get out of bed full of ambition and plans. Today is the day I’m going to follow my routine – devotions, exercises, go for a walk, check e-mail and then get to my writing and get many pages written.
Sometimes this happens. But sometimes, as I’m cleaning up breakfast I’ll think about an e-mail I got yesterday. Maybe I should do something about that. Just real quick. then I’ll get back to my routine. I plop into my office chair and I flick on the computer and skim through my e-mail. Oh, here’s a link to a new writing program that claims to make things SO much easier and while I’m on THAT page I find another link to a new blog I haven’t heard of and on that page is a link to a You-Tube video and before I can say Internet Service Provider my morning routine is gone and I just know I’m going to be behind on my word count for the day.
I hate these moments of lack of self-control. I’ve often wondered what it is about the computer that pulls me into it’s black hole? Why it has such power to make time disappear? And then, the other day as I was clicking onto yet another link that promised to amaze and astound me I felt frustrated with myself and how much time I had wasted. So I took a moment to pull back. To step away. To think about what I was letting the computer do to me.
And then it came to me. Novelty. The computer is an endless source of novelty. Every day, every hour, every minute, yeah every nano-second someone somewhere is posting something new. A new video, blog, twitter post, news feed, comment, link….the list goes on and if you spend any amount of time on the computer I’m fairly sure you too have been drawn into following links like a paparazzi following Justin Bieber who, by the way is (let me check) hmmm actually not doing anything bizarre….today.
I have to think of Ecclesiastes 12:12 “Of making many books there is no end (or blog post/Twitter post?Facebook post) and much study wearies the body”.
Now mind you there was a time I used that same statement to get out of homework, but I have been thinking of the first part the last while. There will never be an end to creating novelty or seeking it. As a writer, I am a contributor to the making of many books and I hope to keep doing it for a long time. In fact, this week, I will put out three books – two are revamped versions of books I had written before the third is a brand new book. And I probably won’t stop writing soon. I hope to be part of someone’s entertainment options.
But at the same time I know that my skimming through the internet is a way of putting off work. Of ignoring a need that I have to fill and mostly, putting off the hard work of writing that I need to do. I know I am easily distracted. I am an ENFP and the prayer for my personality type is “Dear Lord, please help me to focus on one thing at a time…..oh, look a bird.” But at the same time I know that sometimes I need to stop, sit back and recognize what I’m doing with my restless clicking and watching.
Trying to fill an emptiness with things that don’t satisfy. Avoiding the hard, mental push I need to deal with to write my stories. I know I always feel happier and more content when I don’t give in to the temptation to do anything else but write even though it is hard and a struggle. I have to push past the resistance, resist the urge to do something easier. Because when I push past I get to the good stuff. The true story and the honest writing.
Everything has it’s time and season and I try, like anyone else, to give things their proper time and space. When I resist the urge to find the easy and the quick and invest in the hard and difficult work, the satisfaction I feel at the end of the day is much deeper than what I feel if I’ve chuckled over a few cat or cute kid videos and skimmed a bunch of blogs that never quite deliver on the promise.
I realize the irony of what I’m saying…..in a blog…..on the internet…..so what I’m saying to you, if you are a writer, get back to work. If you have been sitting in front of the computer too long, get out and talk to someone face to face.
But first leave a comment below! Then go and read a book. Savor it and appreciate the work put into it by a writer who, often, would sooner be watching cat videos.
(And if you want a FREE book to entertain you, go to my site and claim it by following this link – http://littl.ink/freebook)