When I was in high school, my sights were set on earning a scholarship to law school. I had the grades for it. In my class, the competition was always for second place, because first place was mine. As the national exams approached, some of my teachers thought I would rank among the best students in the country.
There was no question that I would get my scholarship.
When I did the final exams, I was sure I’d aced them because I’d worked hard and I knew the material inside out.
But when the exam results came back, the world as I knew it ended. I’d underperformed and missed the cut-off point for a law scholarship. I was nowhere near the best in my class, never mind nationally. My mediocre grades meant the university gave me a scholarship to study Mass Communication (journalism).
I was going to learn how to write.
I was humiliated. My family couldn’t afford to pay privately for me to attend law school, so I took the scholarship.
In the bitter moment of disappointment, when something doesn’t go our way and a cherished dream goes up in smoke, it’s hard to fathom that God doesn’t only know best, but he acts out of love. I don’t need to say how grateful I am that God slammed that particular door and steered me down a different pathway. He knew the plans he had for me, and the gifts he wanted to use.
There have since been many other slammed doors.
I can think of more than one crossroads in my life when I had a need and a desire, but God didn’t answer the way I hoped.
Jobs I wanted, romantic relationships I yearned for, other opportunities that didn’t pan out. But I’d like to think that, these days, when the Lord shuts a door in my face, after I rub my aching nose and dust myself off, I’m able to give thanks and trust his heart for me.
My newest book, which releases today, is about a woman who’s still struggling to learn this lesson. In Into the Flood, Sonia is a forty-something professional at the brink of a career crisis. She faces her life’s biggest challenge when, as she sees it, none of her previous big prayers have been answered. Her life and her plans are derailed, and she has to return to the small town she thought she’d left behind.
Can you think of a time when God said “no” to something you wanted, but you realised he had something much better in store? Let me know in the comments by Friday. Two randomly chosen commenters will win an electronic copy of Into the Flood.
About Into the Flood
She took this small-town job as a temporary last resort. Falling for her reserved boss was not part of the plan.
One mistake imploded Sonia Krogstad’s PR career, leaving her with a stack of debt and no job prospects. Out of options, she returns to her tiny hometown in the northern wilds of Norway, planning only to stay long enough to get back on her feet and prepare for her big-city comeback.
Reclusive tech genius Axel Vikhammer bought a non-profit community arts center that’s fast becoming a money pit. Closing it down is not an option, especially since it’s a refuge for the teenage daughter he only recently learned he has. With her PR background, Sonia seems the perfect hire for the job as his center’s fundraising manager.
Yet as feelings develop between the two, Axel wonders how he can trust Sonia with his business—or his heart—when her dreams don’t include his small town or him.
With her head and her heart pulling her in different directions, Sonia needs to take a leap of faith. But every time she’s done that in the past, she’s fallen flat on her face. Why should it be different now?
Into the Flood is Book 1 in Milla Holt’s Seasons of Faith Christian romance series. Five friends were in the same wedding in a small Norwegian town over twenty years ago. Four bridesmaids, one bride. Now, two decades on, each woman learns that God’s timing is perfect as they find forever love later in life.